but stolen by me, ha ha!...
Write letters to your friends and family and loved ones that you would want sent out if you were to die. For mine, I assumed that I would die tonight, because probably (HOPEFULLY) in a few years they won't be relevant anymore.
I wanted to let you know I love you, because I probably didn't say it enough. Enjoy this time you've got; make all the friends and see all the movies and read all the books and take all the lessons you can, because it doesn't last long. Also, don't feel bad about divorcing Mom; I am personally glad it happened, because if you'd never moved out, none of this great stuff like friends and culture would have happened to you.
See how short life is? LIVE IT UP. Don't sit waiting for happiness to come to you; go out and grab it! Life isn't about sitting and moping because things didn't go right; it's about learning from your mistakes, moving on, and making the best of it. Also, I hope you realize, even if it's not until much later in life, that you and Dad divorcing was a good thing. Don't feel jealous and hurt by the fact that he is having fun in his life; grow some competitiveness and have MORE fun than he is! Don't feel discarded; feel liberated! Do you think the divorce rate is so high because terrible, sinful people get bored with each other? People make mistakes when they are young, or people change as they get older and start moving in different directions. Don't hold a grudge against Dad because he's breaking a promise he made when he was barely out of college. Look at me! I was 21, do you think I was capable of making sound decisions at this stage in my life? Look at my track record here. People change, people move on, and you should take this opportunity to make YOURSELF happy. Quit focusing on what will make other people feel good and what's "the right thing to do," because so often it seems that "the right thing to do" is NOT the right thing for YOU. Also, I know I never said it, but I did love you.
I don't know what else I can say to you now that I haven't already said before in some form or another. I know that the most important thing to you right now is the here and now, and I know that's probably to be expected since you're 16. But at least think a LITTLE about your future. Don't make fun and exciting decisions now that will make things terrible for you in ten years. And take a little care to not be an idiot with your car so you don't end up like me and Josh Rice. Love ya.
I'm sorry we never got to run a bookstore together, and I'm sorry we never got to have our big house with the home theater and the giant library and the scenic view, and I'm sorry we never got to use up my House on the Rock tokens, and I'm sorry we never got married and had our dual receptions (omg geeky in pants). Know that I loved you, and know that chances are there probably IS another me out there somewhere. Just be sure to distinguish her from the Bexes when you find her (she'll be the one without the obnoxious sex fetishes). :) Also, it is my dying wish that you quit saying you'll do things and do them. Don't wait until a decision is forced upon you, do it now and save yourself the trouble. It'll probably make things easier for you in the long run, and if it doesn't and you just get promoted through the company ladder for the rest of your career, at least you learned something, right? Look at me, I made big important decisions all the time, and while most of them have been probably bad ideas in the long run, at least I made them and learned something from them, right?
...Ok, I have to stop now before I get all depressed.
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